I Make The Only Art That I Can. I Make The Art That Only I Can
My first art fair. An enormous amount of stress went into getting this together. A fair amount of money too. I’m exhausted. It was hot. It was humid. It was rainy during set up. I didn’t sell any artwork. But I did me. I created my space and gave my message. I learned. I gained experience.The sun came out. It didn’t rain again. I had friends come and support me. I had family come and support me. I met some fellow artists. I bought some great art. I met some nice people, went out for dinner after. And I met Loring Cornish. That was a game changer. What a day. Til the next fair, I think. What a year this is turning out to be.
Wow! Yesterday was one of the biggest events of my life to date. It was my largest accomplishment as a budding artist and a huge success! An enormous success by my standards because what I had really been wanting was for people that know and love me, that I have a relationship with to be able to come together and experience another deeper aspect of who I am and for us to get know each other better. And let’s enjoy some delicious wine and food while we’re at it. We built history that evening. I’m humbled by the many parents, kids, friends, and family that came together to make this evening so special. I hope everybody had a great time and enjoyed it as much as I did. Thank you for all the support! I hope I have and can continue to support you in the same way! Yesterday was me at my best.
Here is my working artist statement from the show:
Wow this is exciting! I’ll be having my first solo art exhibit! All me! All the paintings I’ve been doing the past couple of years, I am finally going to get a chance to show people. And the best part is I have a lot of people that I would really like to see my artwork and I imagine they would like to see it too. 🙂
March 1-29, Reception March 8, 4-5pm
Ranazul 8171 Maple Lawn Blvd, Fulton, Md 20759
I finally made it into the HoCo Open! I’ve been wanting to participate in this show since I first saw it in 2010. It’s a great show, very interesting artwork from my perspective which means its colorful and there are things I hadn’t seen or thought of before. The show runs January 16-February 27 at the Howard County Center for the Arts. 8510 High Ridge Road, Ellicott City, MD 21043
This particular painting I submitted is a personal favorite of mine from 2012. That was the time when I was beginning to find my own style and beginning to experiment more and more. SEXO is how I used to sign my artwork from about 2010-2012. This was during my time at Howard Community College. The reason I chose that name Sexo is because the word sex is an iffy word in our society and I wanted to push the envelope a little bit. I wish we would be more open about ourselves as a society, expecially about subjects that are so universal. What’s the big deal? Where did this shame and fear of exposure come from? I don’t think its serving us very well. In any case I have faith that this will change, and I will do my part to continue to push the envelope in whatever way seems appropriate to me. The name Sexo was not something that I had seen before, it was unique to me and I knew that nobody else besides me would have used it. Plus, I was curious to see what kind of reaction it would get from my peers. It was mostly positive-actually it was all positive. 🙂
I’ve since moved on to signing my artwork with my actual name, I’d rather not have to explain every single time somebody sees my work why I signed it with the name Sexo. That being said, the name to me represents an era during my journey as an artist as well as the energy I was working with during that period. Every now and then, Sexo may make an appearance.
I was in an art show last week! I haven’t been in more than a handful, it’s nice to show every once in a while. This was a bit of a tricky one since there was a size standard of 4×6. And that’s inches not feet, I don’t usually make anything that small.. I don’t usually make anything small at all if I can help it. It doesn’t usually have the effect I am looking for. Usually I want to overwhelm, but in a good way. I want you the viewer to be bathed in a gigantic experience of wild color and energy. Larger than you so that you can feel it all the more strongly. So I had to make something new. First attempt didn’t work, I wanted to use a 4×6 canvas board as 3D art rather than just an image. I think I had a very interesting concept too. It was going to be called I Love You, You Are The Best. A kid had once given me a piece of paper with those words on it and I was going to use that piece of paper in the piece. Talk about a huge honor. No award or recognition could ever mean more than that. On the backside of the board it was going to say I’ll Protect You From All The Things I’ve Seen. Crystal Castles reference there. Unfortunately I didn’t have enough time to finalize and secure everything before the deadline. This was the day before it was due. So the morning of the deadline I decide to make a new piece, also using a small canvas board as 3D art. I had a very interesting (to me) concept with that one too. There was a small army guy pointing his gun. In front of his gun were three “children” they were actually more like robots but they were made by a child to represent children. On the background/base of the work in large font I had written Forget The Real World Lets Prepare Them For College. In smaller writing I had also written They Got Money For Wars But Can’t Feed The Poor. One of my favorite 2Pac quotes. Anyways with this piece once again I did not have enough time to get the craftsmanship ready in a way that was satisfactory to myself. This is not something I usually care a whole lot about but if its going to shown to the public then I feel I have a certain responsibility to represent myself as best as possible. There’s definitely something to this piece and I will further explore it more in good time.
So I only have about an hour before I have to turn something in, I thought I might just have to sit this one out. And then I remembered a small drawing I had done about a year and a half ago during a very significant experience. This was drawn during the period where I really discovered that I was the artist of my art. Sounds funny but I hadn’t felt any sense of true freedom as an artist before this. I was always concerned with other people’s potential responses. Not as much anymore. This is what I like so much about being an artist. It seems to be one of the only-maybe the only place left in modern life where we have anything even approaching absolute freedom. And even then there are still risks involved. But usually insane things get a pass when we label them as “art”. It may be the only place left where we can do something for no reason at all and still retain some amount of respect from other people. We lost the ability to play a long time ago unfortunately. (Hang onto it kids, don’t ever let that part of you go.) The part that does something just for the fun of it. Not because it’s a socially accepted activity. Not because other people have done it before.
I remember drawing this picture. I drew the seahorse and then the word BINGO was in my head. See what I do often when creating is I move on a feeling from my heart or my core and then usually an analog for that feeling pops into my head in the form of a word or phrase. That’s what the word BINGO was. It was a mental manifestation of the deeper energy which I chose to express through drawing and coloring the seahorse. I’m not always completely sure how to describe it. I do my best but these are not by any means complete definitions, they are open-ended.
Anyways, normally when I would get a thought such as that one, there would be a voice inside (probably voice of my department of self-preservation) that would say, “hey, how are you going to explain this to people?” And normally I would have to come up with a reason otherwise I may not write or create it as openly as I would like because I don’t want to have to try to explain something I don’t have an explanation for. (That usually doesn’t cut it in the “adult” world.) Most of my art is spontaneous. Whatever pops up at the time is what I prefer to put down. I once said that I like to make random thoughts into art. I do. But this time it was different. This time I heard a different voice inside of me, this time from my heartspace which said, “You Are The Artist.” and I responded, “I Am The Artist.” Hmm, I like the sound of that. This was what I talked about in my first blog entry here on wordpress earlier in the beginning of the year. I am going to make a second entry where I show some of the other drawings I did during that period. They are much more detailed and complex. Anyways, Bingo it is and that’s a bit of the story behind it. Check me out on Facebook and on Instagram